Finding Hope In The Chaos…
“The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.” -Psalm 34:18
My earlier posts have given a glimpse of how I got to where I am. What led me to finding my Faith in God again. I can’t truly say that I had Faith in God before going to Church on January 19, 2025. I wasn’t leading a life that included God or Church in any way.
This verse hits home for me. Looking back before accepting God into my life I was brokenhearted. My spirit had certainly been crushed. I’ve lost loved ones over the years that I never truly dealt with. I just turned to drinking and drugs to numb the pain.
It was my fiance, Nina, that said to me on January 17, 2025, “You need God in your life!”
It was at that moment that it hit me. She was absolutely right. There are times in everyone’s life when we reach a proverbial fork in the road. At that point, we must make a choice.
In front of me, I had two choices. I continue drowning my life in alcohol and lose Nina. Alternatively, I go to Church, ask God for forgiveness, and start re-building my relationship with Him. Which in turn would hopefully start the healing with Nina.
Before that night, I would of told you I was completely fine. That I had a “healthy” relationship with alcohol (if there is such a thing.) They say the first sign is denial! And it absolutely is! If anyone ever said anything about how much I drank I’d deny it and justify it. I would of never thought I’d step into Church and truly accept Him into my heart and into my life. The Lord works in mysterious ways!
I was unaware that the Lord was there next to me the entire time. He was just waiting for me to say the words, “Jesus I accept you as my Lord and Savior. Please forgive me for all of my sins.” Take a moment and think to yourself, When did you accept Him into your life? Is there a specific moment that He spoke to you?
Just waiting for me to come to Him and ask Him for forgiveness. Waiting for me to accept His word as the Truth. Waiting for His word to be anchored in my heart.
My chaos were nights fueled by alcohol. Only to sleep it off and then repeat it the next night. There was no end in sight. It is Him that has given me the strength to stop the alcohol fueled nights. I know I am not alone and will always have Him guiding me and watching over me.
“Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you.” 1 Peter 5:7 (NIV)
I did it. This decision was one of the best I have made in my entire life. Each day is a new day! Be thankful for all that you have! Always show Grace to those around you as you never know what someone is going through. Walk by Faith! He is always there listening, watching, and waiting for you!
Anchored by His Word
Guided by His Truth
Walk by Faith,
Chad
